Help

So I've got a few things to get off of my chest, but I have no idea where to start. I guess I could just go in order. Or split it into two posts, idk, we'll figure it out. First thing's first.

I'm a chronic starter. So I stumbled across a college and asked myself asking for information with intentions of attending. Because I want to go somewhere, but I'm not quite sure--

Okay fuck it. I'm stuck. Or I feel that way. I do a great job of getting to a certain point and suddenly there is no more forward momentum and I just wish I knew how to make it happen. I've got all of the thought energy and the focus of doing things I've never done before but I still feel like I'm blocking myself. Maybe I'm too comfortable again. Maybe I'm not daring enough. I honestly don't know. But I do wish I had the secret. Or A secret to continuing forward.

I'm tired of making lateral moves. I wish I knew why and/or how I was making them so I could stop it. Something's gotta give.